In the last months and I have been blessed with an opening that has placed me in communion with the aspect of God that Jesus called Abba or the “Father” and Aramaic.
I really believed that communion with Source was the highest possibility for my journey. Through grace I was shown how wrong I was, for the depth, magnitude and majesty of this unfolding communion with the “Father” is beyond breathtaking to my very soul.
The concept of “Father” always seemed a little hokey to me, anthropomorphic and laced with human projection. It was certainly not the high, lofty presence beyond any human identification that I viewed as the true Source. But somehow despite my unconscious resistance, the “Father” he came to me. I sit here looking for words to convey the experience and I am at a loss. It is impossible. So I'll drop the idea of trying to neatly described this and just let my soul speak.
I really believed that communion with Source was the highest possibility for my journey. Through grace I was shown how wrong I was, for the depth, magnitude and majesty of this unfolding communion with the “Father” is beyond breathtaking to my very soul.
The concept of “Father” always seemed a little hokey to me, anthropomorphic and laced with human projection. It was certainly not the high, lofty presence beyond any human identification that I viewed as the true Source. But somehow despite my unconscious resistance, the “Father” he came to me. I sit here looking for words to convey the experience and I am at a loss. It is impossible. So I'll drop the idea of trying to neatly described this and just let my soul speak.
A hole or emptiness I didn't know existed has been revealed and is being healed and filled through this communion. I am now with the Father that none of us could ever experience through our earthly father. The real Father that we truly need. I am in communion with God as both omnipotent, omniscient and omnipresent Being, but also personal, tender, loving, wise beyond comprehension, and totally having my best interest as the number one priority. I am in communion with the beingness that is all my heart and soul have thirsted for. I am in a peace that I have never known to this depth. I only want complete oneness and absorption of all that I am back into the Father. I am ready to “go home” in a moments notice. My heart is bursting with a depth and magnitude of love I have not known. A fountain of joy and happiness has burst forth drowning me in its luminous ecstasy.
I am more aware than ever of the walls of separation that I have erected long ago, and have not yet surrendered. They have veiled my heart and mind from Him. They have painfully isolated me from all I have truly wanted. This has been made starkly clear as I discover and surrender them. I only want them all to be gone. For I see more clearly than ever that is only “i” that have separated myself from God that is “i” that felt “i” could really find happiness, joy, fulfillment on my own. It was “i” that really believed somehow “i” could manage to find my way in this and other worlds. The pride and ignorance of this has walled off a part of my mind and heart. There is not the tiniest action or thought that I can have in separation from Him, for I do not even exist were it not for Him. As I face the reality that there would never have been a “me”, never the experience of being or existence without him, I am brought to a humility that is inexpressible. It is easy to kneel in prayer and prostrate myself before the Father who is as Jesus Christ said, “the Good”, the only good there is. I now know why he told his disciples not to call even him good, that only the father is the Good.
I write you to share the astounding, luminous depth of awakening and realization I am experiencing as I walk the path of Christ. I am ever more astounded at the depth and height of the path that Christ Jesus revealed and offers to us. I am grateful for all the paths I have walked, all the practices I have done. They were all on immense value, and all brought me home to Christ. But, with each passing day, month and year that I have followed the way of the Christ, I am ever more astounded at its glory and magnificence. I am home with Christ and the Father more with each passing day. I am realizing as Jesus promised that “In that day, you shall know that I am in My Father, and you in Me, and I in you.” (John 15:19-20). This states succinctly the ultimate goal of this journey of awakening more clearly than anything I have ever come upon. I pray that all of my brothers and sisters may come to realize this.
I am more aware than ever of the walls of separation that I have erected long ago, and have not yet surrendered. They have veiled my heart and mind from Him. They have painfully isolated me from all I have truly wanted. This has been made starkly clear as I discover and surrender them. I only want them all to be gone. For I see more clearly than ever that is only “i” that have separated myself from God that is “i” that felt “i” could really find happiness, joy, fulfillment on my own. It was “i” that really believed somehow “i” could manage to find my way in this and other worlds. The pride and ignorance of this has walled off a part of my mind and heart. There is not the tiniest action or thought that I can have in separation from Him, for I do not even exist were it not for Him. As I face the reality that there would never have been a “me”, never the experience of being or existence without him, I am brought to a humility that is inexpressible. It is easy to kneel in prayer and prostrate myself before the Father who is as Jesus Christ said, “the Good”, the only good there is. I now know why he told his disciples not to call even him good, that only the father is the Good.
I write you to share the astounding, luminous depth of awakening and realization I am experiencing as I walk the path of Christ. I am ever more astounded at the depth and height of the path that Christ Jesus revealed and offers to us. I am grateful for all the paths I have walked, all the practices I have done. They were all on immense value, and all brought me home to Christ. But, with each passing day, month and year that I have followed the way of the Christ, I am ever more astounded at its glory and magnificence. I am home with Christ and the Father more with each passing day. I am realizing as Jesus promised that “In that day, you shall know that I am in My Father, and you in Me, and I in you.” (John 15:19-20). This states succinctly the ultimate goal of this journey of awakening more clearly than anything I have ever come upon. I pray that all of my brothers and sisters may come to realize this.
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